I am a creep.

I am a creep.
I have been working through some ideas in my photographs, this was the start of some new work to come.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Cause to say "never say never" you done said never twice.

So, me trying to stay as real as I can in my medium of art I always shoot film. The problem with film is the decrease in places to develop and print, its almost like digital has a plot against film, almost like oil company's putting the kibosh on LA cable car system way back when. I did find a loop hole to the high cost of Los Angeles photo labs, but I am keeping this to myself and a select few who are really down for the cause.

I have a lot of new work to show y'all, but I am going to span it out and edit some so you always have new work to look at. I am going to try to show it to you in order shot.

This is a body of work I was playing with when I first moved into my Downtown home. I was in love with the natural light and just the soothing composition's I was seeing while cleaning or making coffee or even just being stoned and zoning out. Peep it.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Five more days Hey-Sus.

It's Monday and I am bummed cause The Icon in Los Angeles is closed until january 2nd. I guess i'll have to go to A&I.Here is a little jam to kick off your count down till Jesus Christ's birthday.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Indian at heart.

Yesterday, i was able to shoot Eddie House from Steed Lord. I was also lucky enough to shoot hisbeautiful girlfriend Danni, stay hyped for the next post.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Hiroshi is my homeboy.

This man keeps it really real.

"I am against the kind of evolution, ha ha ha. I am sticking to the traditional method."

Watchin' time fly..

I m way hyped about a shoot an friday, and even more hyped about some future images i have to share with y'all.

Monday, December 6, 2010

My man thats a Rasta got the best green pasta..

Tree trunk buds, but that good shit'l cost ya.

These dudes names are Sef and Lenny, guess who name is whos.

I have a lot of new work and no money, so keep your ear to the ground for this next post could be a club banger.

also listen to this band.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Don't look back.

I have new work for y'all to enjoy soon, for now here is some under exposed shots i tried to save in light room, they look half of half way decent. ha ha. anyway...like to hear it, here it go.

I think if i just had a grid spot on her face or maybe a strip soft box it would have been rad.

stay tuned.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

..a snack to hold you over.

I have a lot to say about this work i am just having a hard time writing and editing. i really want some feed back tho, it may inspire more motivation to write.

Found my place in the sun.

I have been steady grinding for a long while now. I must admitt i was in a bit of a rut as far as making new work goes, I had all the ideas but no time, materials or motivation to make it happen.
I always shoot street work but hardly devo the negs. I think just that alone will be a body of work on its own..to think i am out making compositions with color and city shapes and never look at them. I feel like when i do devo and look at the negs with fresh eyes it will be another story all together, not to mention teach me a little about by myself and my evolving style.
Ever since i learned to control light it has opened up a whole other side of making work. its a feeling of control and really being in charge of the over all product. I was blessed with a light kit so stay tuned for some test rolls. I am always looking for new subjects men and women, but of course as a straight man i do often shoot women.

I went to see the Dennis Hopper show at the Museum of contemporary art in Los Angeles shortly after i moved to the city. I had just seen "American Dreamer" and heard Dennis speak about art and what it meant to him. I really strongly agreed with his view on men and women and the relationship we as human develop.
When i saw D.Hoppers work and some of his photography i noticed something. I noticed the way straight men photograph women, some shoot really over done sexy shots and alot of men shoot them in admiration. The way i view women, the way i fall in love with women, the way i love my mother and growing up as a kid with only her and i for the first 3 years of my life.I knew this was something worth investigating further. My goal was to make photographs showing this love and admiration i had. i think as a super mans man and the way i look will always reflect people over all opnion on my work as far as photographing women.

Thursday, October 14, 2010


my new girl.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Insert mellow dramatics.

The title of this blog will prolly be the title of some of my most recent series of self portraits.They are not really that recent, in fact i think i shot them last march when i was loathing in self pity.
I grew up in Upland California, the burbs for sure. Its really funny how different life in the city is. I guess thats what brought me here.I notice more than anything out here is that people don't complain. No one plays the victim or has daddy issues, people just are. I ride the bus everyday at all times of the day and everyone just has this face of knowing that this is just a part of life and we are all really struggling together so no one feels the need to bitch and moan about what they have and don't have.

So with all that being said, you see some crazy shit when you're walking home from work at 1 am. About a week ago i was getting off the bus on 3rd and Lucas. When i got off this gnarly huge bum got off and followed me for a while when all of the sudden i heard loud slapping. I looked to my left and across the street 2 cholos were beating the shit out of another cholo. The bum sat on the curb and watched and i kept on walkin' till i got about a block down and saw two well over six foot black trannys breaking into a car. Holy shit life is nuts. i got home to my quiet and clean apartment and opened up a can of beer.
My girl likes to play dress up, here is some sexy photos of her.
She's the cats pajamas.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Lonesome Crowded West.

So I finally made the move from the IE to LA. I live in Echo Park a stones throw from DTLA. its pretty fuckin rad. I have just been drinking,shooting and job hunting, ohhh and changing schools. I used to go to Chaffey College a diamond in the rough, now turning to shit from what I hear. leave it to a faculty with big egos and a little bit of new budget money to totally blow it. I am glad i got to go for the last stretch of the goldin' era. Gonna miss those print sessions with my real lab homies and my mentors.
So I was going to go to LACC, but when i went to file my paper work the whole campus had their head up their asses, so i quickly came home and changed over to Pasadena City College. Another amazing JC. I am really only going to get fresh crit on my new work and to print for shows and my portfolio.
I have a new girlfriend, she is married and leaving her man for me.Check her out.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Broke my pace and ran out of time Sometimes I'm so full of shit that it should be a crime

Man I have been busy so far this summer. I was supposed to move to Hollywood with two of my best friends.Well that fell through, kinda lame cause had I known it wasn't going to work out i could have moved out in May. Either way its for the better, I am now moving to Downtown and paying really cheap rent with a nice size room.
My photo gigs are slow and steady, some weeks I shoot 4 clubs some I zero. Its works out tho, i am making it on a few gigs a week. I am going to continue doing so and try to snag a part or full time when I set up shop in DTLA.
On some cool shit, I got to meet Atiba Jefferson, an amazing photographer for skateboarding and now he shoots for the Lakers. It was a book release and signing, I chopped it up with him for a bit. The show was ending and he was pulling his work of the wall, I was joking and asked for a print and he pulled it down signed it and just gave it to me. I felt like a little kid, the bigest kool aid smile walking down Sunset with a 30x30 portrait of P-Ron when he was on City Stars, shot by some Atib's. Fuckin rad!!!

There was also a fight, that is the flick on top, then one with Atiba,Ako and their sister with his neff little Reed.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

..If God takes life,

He's an Indian giver.

I dunno if I am jealous or jaded. I just seem to like no one except my immediate friends. Everyone is wrong, nothing is fun (except drinking) and pissing people off. Is it sick that I live to make people uncomfortable in their own skin? I have been working as a club photographer to fuel my desire for booze.
Its funny watching the masses drink themselves shameless. Its sad, these folks are future parents by default. Check this girl out..her boyfriend really respects her, and I think she would make a killer mom.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Sunday, May 23, 2010

We are the ever-living ghost of what once was.

The term "Stay gold" is for fools.We really can not, not grow up.We all face certain reality's as we grow old. I feel like with my photos or any kind of work that i do that i am in fact documenting a feeling or freezing time for my own mental archives.Its weird cause i do not own a skateboard or have even stepped on one for sometime, but i still feel really good about where its at in the world right now.
The skateboard sub-culture shaped who i am today, not my physical shape of course. hahaha. As far as music, film and literature i have always been in the know of the up and coming artist, and i have skateboarding to thank.
Anyways this movie is coming out, and watching the preview gives me butterfly's in my gut, like the kind you get riding the chairlift when snowboarding. check it out.

I have also been lurking this site for hours.My friend Matt Flores turned me onto it.

Stay gold or go fuck yourselfs!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Dennis McGrathxBob Flowersx HUF..maybe someday.

I grew up in the Skateboard and tag banging era. either you were rockin argyle socks and cut off or a hanging belt and a Chelsea cut writing all over shit.
I kinda bounced back and forth.During this time Steve Rocco pretty much ran Skateboarding.He had a real edgy mag called BIG BROTHER, awsome shit when you're 14.The mag was def not for moms to see and even more so when Rocco sold to none other than Smut peddler Larry Flynt.
Skateboarding was about to take a wild and commercial twist now with Flynt publications a major player in the industry.The most recognizable outcome was JACKASS.
Either way i saw this video and was stoked to hear some old industry names, and see the outcome of a photographer who almost gave it all up.

Dennis McGrath for HUF

Oh what??

You all know my taste is usually for the black and beautiful, but i got a soft spot for ol' girl right here. She looks like a handful, but they all are in the end.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

I have gone to far.

A blog from the crackberry. What the?

"When our kite lines first crossed, we tied them into knots"

....and to finally fly away we had to cut them off.

Enough with the extra hipster lonely guy self loathing. This is about to be a rant about the never ending subject of "Love" *Cough.Cough* bullshit *Cough*
I may come off as a twenty-something dude with commitment or co-dependency issues, but at my age who isn't? I mean really? Who are the marketing people for this? Who came up with this concept and why do we all long for it so badly. Some of you are super tough skinned and don't need it, but who the fuck are you kidding you were hooked on this concept when you first learned that all you had to do was tell your mama you love her and bat those lashes to get a new toy.
It's a concept that has been force fed upon us since birth. The thing is the way you love or are loved by your parents or pets is unconditional.The fact of the matter is, your parents will hate you and you will get sick of picking up your dogs poop.I guess what I am getting at is that we as humans are all in love with the idea of falling in "love" and I'm just pissed I didn't come up with this concept. Hallmark has it in its clutches and making millions.Those assholes get to cuddle with a big fucking healthy bank statement, while I invest time, money and sleep trying to obtain something I would prolly be just fine with out as long as I didn't turn on the t.v, read any books or have to see two old people on the bus that still love each other after all these years.
You know what I blame heart break on??? fucking pride man! everyone has too much of it. Just let your fucking guard down for Christ sake.It's next to impossible in the world we live in with all the expectations that entertainment sets for us, well that and social networking.Facebook, myspace,twitter,blogspot,tumblr; it's all just a way to show our status. I also think its a way to multi-task.So is texting. I can send out a mass text that reads "hey lady, miss your face. you free tonight? wanna catch a drink?" and whoever answers first is the lucky girl to fill my void.
I could go on and on about this. the reason I brought this up is because im a bitch and because of the recent "status updates" I have been seeing on facebook. everyone seems to be pining over something or someone, and trying to play it off like its not about someone. Don't fear people...summer is upon us. It's time for half naked people, mass texts and that feeling of "the chase" we all love.
It's is kinda sad though, cause its just a vicious cycle. when fall comes around, lets say late September..you will be texting the summer fling you felt the closest to for a good ol' fall/winter cuddle. It will be cute, a winter of coffee followed by romantic comedy's and a possible night cap. You will retire to whoevers house is more comfortable and say reassuring shit like "I could lay here with you forever" and "no one kisses me like you do". You will have inside jokes and your own vocab of sarcasm, people will be sick to be around you...then Bam! happy new year!!! one of your prideful asses wont need the other..you will both go on fucking rampages breaking hearts all around you...then those broken hearts will do the same and the world will be full of spiteful twenty going on thirty something year olds.All Cinderallas, and there is no slipper.
The sad part of it is, this process will repeat until you are just sick of fucking looking for "the one" and you just settle or pop out a kid and then you have a common bond to take care of another human and wont realize how much you guys hate one another.
Yeah, I sound super jaded.It's because I am. I just spent five semesters looking at shitty art and talking to women that have not even thought about what they want in the next ten years of thier life.In the end I'm just a sucker and a cynic.I am coming to that age where I'm not "selling out" I'm "buying in" and I don't like it.
Sorry about this rant, just had to get it off my chest. I have been having alot of thoughts keeping me up while attempting to quit drinking, its weird how much you feel when you are not numb from booze and pills.
That's enough of that, sorry again this is a photo blog not a "whoa is me" diary..here is some images I have made..nothing really recent just some shit out of the bone yard.

I'm going to be off school for a bit, so I should have alot of new work for yall to peep..some fun shit and some more serious work, I love to shoot I hate to edit.Deal with it.

P.S These are just my opinions, and are not open for debate.I'm right.Go fuck yourself.For reals it will save you sleep and heartache.

Monday, May 10, 2010

I have been Backpacking through hell.

Also known as school..shit has been kicking my ass. I will have an epic post for you assholes soon. This is some shit I made in my photoshop class.

Smell ya later!!!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Tom Waits, you like toast too?

So my life these days is up and down.Started the year off with a bang, put on a photo show. So now with nothing to focus on but myself, i have been diving head first into my work and lining things up for Moving to Los Angeles, took me long enough right?Anyways, my days are filled with school, bus rides and bike rides.I have alot of time to think, which isnt always a good thing, but not bad either.Today i was living the life of Riley..woke up had an amazing brekfest bullshited on the bookface..got ready and rode my beater fixie to the record shop in Clarmont..Rhino records.So im cold chillin, peeping out some new upper playground book.I look up and who do i see??? Tom Waits..wow.this is weird. I know i should be stoked, my friends all love the dude, i just have not got around to listening to his shit. i had seen his drunk ass on the Bukowski dvd "Born into this" one of my friends have a portrait of him and another one has a big fuckin barn tattooed on his ribs, so dude is bonified. At that moment i couldn't help think of Mitch Hedberg..You know the Peter Frampton skit? Now stay the fuck away from me Waits i aint got shit to say to you!!!Now if this isnt weird, he is with what looks like his kid and Bill Pullman, yes the dad from Casper..the president that makes the epic speech on Independence day..What a fuckin weird combo for a bromance.Im sorry guy i failed you as a blogger,and artist cause i had no fuckin camera, seriously what was i thinking? i even took my camera out of my bag before i left for the ride.I failed.

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Tuesday, March 23, 2010

One for all, all for one. Not fucking real.

So, i have nothing but respect for certain high profile graff dudes..most are dicks and i cant wait till they go to jail and everyone forgets about them.I know it sounds harsh, but as a photo geek i have met alot of them and walked away thinking, wow that's why they always say "don't meet your heroes"
I also have a big issue with making your graff crew into a clothing company.How fucking lame is it to see a shit load of toys wearing you crews name blasted across there chest and dude cant even rock a decent fill in sporting a pocket full of shit markers.
Ok enough ranting..i did wanna post some street portraits i did of Saber, dude has been rad every time i ran into him. i enjoy meeting artist of our time that are still hella humble. so here we go..again just scanned negs, not really color corrected..just seeing what is print worthy..
There has been some question as to if he is going over the "Atlas cats" its a legal wall people get over it and quit trying to pump up the rumor mill


Sunday, March 21, 2010

I love you like a rap kid loves breaks.

I have been shooting alot in the studio, really trying to perfect shooting in controlled environment. Every once and a while i am able to get a model that just gets it, i don't have to give a million directions or explain anything..just shoot.focus.shoot. I met kat in between classes, she was bout it. Ill prolly shoot her a few more times in studio then take my strobe skills to the streets.
I mostly shoot street, or self portrait work. I am learning new thing and trying to think outside of my box. I like the process of controlled environment. You get to shoot and really edit and see if you are getting what you want out of a photograph.also i get to make photos that as an artist feel that people would like to look at, now or ten years from now.I am always asking myself..do these photos count?? Am i pushing the work? or just pushing out bad shits. I like to think that as an artist you need to be a one upper, to yourself and to other artists. If we all just think something is "good" or "cool" then what are we getting out of the work??
You gotta keep the movement movin.

I didnt really edit the color scans..just was seeing what was print worthy.


Monday, March 15, 2010

either way it's okay, I wasn't tryin' to get laid

I just wanted to say "I hope you have a great day"

I wanted to post some of the lovleys i have shot. They will be the end of me.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

These are a few of my favorite things.

Although i have been attempting to go dry for the last 72 hours, I wanted to post an image I shot while drinking. I tend to shoot alot while drinking its "part of my artistic process" or so i am told.

In other photographic news..the Inland Empire is slowly killing the film medium of photography. First my school did away with c-printing and now the city has done away with the only place that develops medium format film.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010